tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53389902011-04-21T20:48:23.547-07:00past things from my palmthings i entered in my palm and not on here...now they are here
patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.comBlogger281100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-1084418806381840872004-05-12T20:26:00.000-07:002004-05-12T20:26:46.380-07:00archive of a journal i had on my 1st palm....nothing new will be added here....so if you read it....theres no need to be here again.patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934981862003-04-29T17:18:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:18:45.013-07:002/10/02
10:14am
its been a long time since i've written.
that maybe because ive been busy or didnt feel like it or just didnt care.....
but now here i am, sad...lost confused and pissed off...at myself for feeling the previous.
Stacy and I really seem to hit it off...but she has somethings she has to work out. i know that im constantly getting too close way too freakin fast, but this time i patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934981572003-04-29T17:18:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:18:08.070-07:0010/04/01
2:29pm
ok i know its been a while, ive been busy with the move....im in now...thank god. it looks nice...and its cozy.......this weekend is gonna be weird.....i may see carey (at have a nice day---shanin invited me out)tomorrow.....and then theres dans party and mergedownis playing on saturday......and all while lancaster invades pittsburgh...im not sure if im looking forward to this.
patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934981212003-04-29T17:17:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:17:33.610-07:009/25/01
9:59am
ok i got problems....now im worried that i screwed up with jess...and im scared about tanya coming down.i dont know whats wrong with me...i dont get it.
started packing last night......this is gonna be a pain.but it will be worth it....
jason says everythings cool with jess.....i hope so.
10:30am
ed was laid off yesterday...that sux.....that whole WTC thing is really fucking patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934980582003-04-29T17:16:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:16:26.663-07:009/20/01
10:46am
ok its official.....im crazy about tanya.....i dont think about carey or jess.....damn im fucked up.....also i just took the apartment so ill be in october 1st....hopefully sept 29,30.....
tanya and her friends are coming october 5th....yahoo...i think tanya is gonna stay with me....thats gonna be weird
i look forward to it..
so know i gotta start getting ready to move so its patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934980352003-04-29T17:16:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:16:01.130-07:009/18/01
10:07am
well i IMed tanya last night till almost 2....i am absoluttely crazy about her.....she likes good music and movies....r.e.m., tmbg, pixies, dead milkmen....WHY DOES SHE LIVE SO FAR!!!!!
1:54pm
i cant wait till after7...ill be able to talk to tanya again.....i should call her soon...just to hear her voice.
what do i do if jess wants to see me?
3:06pm
fate has stepped into my patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934979662003-04-29T17:14:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:14:44.760-07:009/17/01
8:49am
well friday night went great. apparently she had a great time....so we are to get together this week sometime. now the funny thing is i was so worried about carey coming into the picture and messing me up. i never imagined this, saturday night went about my normal mergedown going routine.....was nervous about carey being there even though i knew she wouldnt be. never imagined id patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934979242003-04-29T17:14:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:14:03.860-07:009/12/01
10:58am
well, i didnt write yesterday cause it was a weird day. 2 planes crashed into the world trade center and one into the pentegon and one in somerset......how the fuck does someone ever conceive the idea to hijack a freaking commercial airliner and crash it into a building im sorry 3 planes in to 3 building 2 of which have 50,000 innocent .....screw innocent.....just people in it...patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934978922003-04-29T17:13:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:13:29.340-07:009/7/01
10:06am
well, here we are another friday...yawn.
at least it appears as if i have some plans....tonight ....have a nice cafe- awwwyeah.......(sarcasm thank you)
tomorrow bar11....maybe ill see jess...that would be cool.....she comes home today.
10:50am
note- i think i wanna make a public list of celebs i thought were dead.
and words thats disturb me.
12:50pm
3-3.5 hours left...ok im patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934978722003-04-29T17:13:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:13:06.226-07:009/06/01
1:12pm
boy my days go so freaking slow anymore.....at least till i get outta work that is.patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934978512003-04-29T17:12:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:12:44.960-07:009/4/01
11:55am
damn im tired and i dont feel too good.
i think tonight i may get that receiver and then do some web work...those programs are really coolpatheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934978302003-04-29T17:12:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:12:13.126-07:008/29/01
10:30am
just got to deal with carey a little bit.god is she adorable....as she was talking to me ....she seems to stumble around her words like some one who has something on their mind......but doesnt know quite what to do or say about it......sorta like i do when i talk to her.
man one opportunity is all that i want.....i just want a chance to make her fall for me. that day will patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934978152003-04-29T17:11:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:11:50.936-07:008/27/01
9:00am
ok well, i feel a little depressed.....tomorrow is just another day.....and yet, it brings me down. why are birthdays nothing but depressing for me anymore? it really sucks.
10:30am
i am very alone. i dont want to be alone anymore but im not gonna settle. but i also want to be alone, in my own place. pretty ironic huh?
i want to be alone but i dont wanna be alone. im really patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934977742003-04-29T17:11:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:11:04.243-07:008/25/01
5:00pm
last nightwas great i had such a good time with my friends.....my headache is freakin killin me.just need more beer to ease the pain...that girl 3doorsdown is cute....i gotta get her to come down tonight.....oh well well see...this is reallly hard to type on my lap...so to sum up.........im having a great freakin time.......oh and im tired too......patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934976972003-04-29T17:09:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:09:47.620-07:008/22/01
9:02am
im not too sure what to do. should i take the risk and rent or stay at home for another 1or 2 and buy. god i dont wanna stay there....i get so frustrated there.
9:53am
you never realize how much you would like to say hi to someone until they are gone.
10:36am
i sorry that i didnt make it to see you candy. i really am. that was really wrong of me.......i realize that i miss patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934976802003-04-29T17:09:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:09:31.010-07:008/21/01
9:50am
what a dream last night, she was so perfect. i know it was a dream because one of two things.....1. noone is that perfect 2.anyone even close to that would stay away from me.
11:00am
the worst thing is not n
knowing how to talk to someone.
11:29am
something is terribly wrong today. i have no idea what it is.
11:52am.
i cant think straight.my mnid keeps wandering and i have patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934976292003-04-29T17:08:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:08:41.766-07:00/17/01
12:16pm
so, yeah i didnt write yesterday....i was busy.
12:55pm
thank god its TGIF
and the parents are going away......next weekend is the cabin...sweet.
and soon Jess should be coming home. hopefully she'll still wanna see me.patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934976102003-04-29T17:08:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:08:01.043-07:008/15/01
9:58am
well i feel sorry for myself again, just vented to ed and i just wanna curl in a ball and cry. patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934975782003-04-29T17:07:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:07:27.740-07:008/14/01
10:23am
well, i got nothing done last night, except i got real far on max payne. an marks invite which once i printed it out, it was wrong...oh well.
hopefully tonight i we can drive past that house and then make an appointment to check it out, inside. plus, maybe get some other work done. i hope....maybe i can squeeze in a game of max payne too.
11:57am
mmmmm....poptart.
3:06pm
god,patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934975572003-04-29T17:07:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:07:04.876-07:008/13/01
9:51am
well, its almost the middle of the month....15 days till im 26, what fun. i had to work that stupid SAE carshow yesterday...it rained. lwts see, i feel like ive lost alot of time. the summers almost over and i really havent done too much of anything. thats pretty sad. really makes me regret my life. my teeth aren't feeling to good. i need to do something. something real, get out patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934975402003-04-29T17:06:00.002-07:002003-04-29T17:06:40.203-07:008/10/01
2:22pm
well my hang over is slowly fading aaway...thank god.sometimes i think that i have a problem.....i need to watch how much i drink....damn.patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934975242003-04-29T17:06:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:06:25.076-07:008/9/01
10:47am
well, its been a good day considering.
i just hung up with melissa and i woory about her, but it makes me realize that i can do whatever i want. and since im where i am im pretty lucky. she constatly tosses away every opportunity she has, she doesnt care about herself at all, or her future.
"borrowing" her mom's credit card and charging $1000 in Alcohol...what has happened to thatpatheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934975062003-04-29T17:06:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:06:04.056-07:008/8/01
11:54 am
found a few houses, maybe a fixer-upper would be cool a 54k house is only $250....well, for 30 years but its $200 less than apts i was lookin at.
1:47pm
ok, this is good im more awake today than i have been. i have a bit of work to do tonight.....so hopefully ill be productive. I have to do MArk's invites.patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934974842003-04-29T17:05:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:05:39.943-07:00 8/7/01
2:00pm
Waldo is selling her house, should I go for it. My parents seem to think its a good idea. I mean it would be real tight but just think about it. My House it sounds real cool. So now what to do. Hopefully he'll go look at it tonight and I can decide what I wanna do.....well, we'll see.
3:47pm
here's an idea, i get the loan for like 10k more and payoff my car, computer, and maybe patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934974752003-04-29T17:05:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:05:25.880-07:008/6/01
12:43pm
August 6th Damn this summer has really flown by. i am such a waste of energy. Luckily i dont have a lot so im not wasting much. there has to be something for me to do to fix this shit. is this my quarter-century crisis? why is my life so lame?
1:02pm
i wonder like ed said, how many people my age ARE happy? probably not alot of em. maybe this is the time for alot of unhappiness inpatheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934974222003-04-29T17:04:00.001-07:002003-04-29T17:04:25.200-07:008/4/01
well, its official..........im freakin lame...its satuurday night, i have no friends, no devotions, and no energy. what should is do? i have been thinking alot. i realized how badly ive fucked up my life. i walk through the days blindly.....i think im better than i am....i was never like this. what has happened to me? how did i get to be this way. is this why my life seems so blank. impatheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934974042003-04-29T17:04:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:04:10.133-07:00 8/3/01
10:18am
well, im slowly trying to get a feel for carey's situation and take on me....im slowly analyzing her answers to vaarious questions, so i can see if she is on the ssame page as i. except i havent received an email back yet. oh well only time will tell.
10:38aam
i think that it would be best if i leavve the whole carey issue alone for a while if i dont receive an email soon....patheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5338990.post-934973732003-04-29T17:03:00.000-07:002003-04-29T17:03:36.300-07:008/2/01
so here i sit waiting for her to call....will she? god i hope so. i cant wait to talk to her let alone see her. i have a lot of hope in this with her. i just hope i dont fuck it up. oh well, tomorrow is another day...... good night.
10:29am
i cant believe its thursday already...not that im complaining..believe me...i desire the weekends arrival. ive been a little happier recently, sincepatheticboyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03611590850445307191noreply@blogger.com0