past things from my palm

8/27/01

9:00am
ok well, i feel a little depressed.....tomorrow is just another day.....and yet, it brings me down. why are birthdays nothing but depressing for me anymore? it really sucks.

10:30am
i am very alone. i dont want to be alone anymore but im not gonna settle. but i also want to be alone, in my own place. pretty ironic huh?
i want to be alone but i dont wanna be alone. im really screwed up. im tired of feeling this way. im tired.

12:03pm
everytime i think of what i have to look forward to i get very down.......cause i have nothing. i just want to meet the right person. i wake up cold and empty every morning. i want to wake up warm.

3:18pm
Carey is really chatty with me at times via e-mail. i don't know if i like it. im sure that ill just start to like her more and more and just end up getting hurt.....its what i always do to myself....and so is life.

3:35pm
i think i need a change.....i may start with a slight wardrobe change then do apartment......i need something.....im too goddamn depressed anymore.