Tuesday, April 29, 2003
9/17/01
8:49am
well friday night went great. apparently she had a great time....so we are to get together this week sometime. now the funny thing is i was so worried about carey coming into the picture and messing me up. i never imagined this, saturday night went about my normal mergedown going routine.....was nervous about carey being there even though i knew she wouldnt be. never imagined id meet someone....in walk Tanya, (A.)the name alone kicks ass, then we talked and rode to the s.side together and talked and talked and talked.....then went back to her hotel and talked and talked and talked and kissed and held each other..it was amazing.....now she is all i can think about....sadly...Jess who.....? and heres the rub....Tanya lives 3hours away. how do i deal with that? so now i am in a real bad situation......do i forget about jess even though its a slim chance ill ever see tanya again or do i forget about tanya and supress these feelings and see jess? or do i walk away from both? YEAH! this sucks!
9:20am
tanya's face hasnt left my head.....what was it about her? i have no idea....she just totally kicked ass.
10:43am
i hope i get to talk to her tonight. im sad today, it appears this light in my life is too distant, so i am again in the dark.
12:30pm
well, appparently she really liked me....and wants to see me agani....lunch
8:49am
well friday night went great. apparently she had a great time....so we are to get together this week sometime. now the funny thing is i was so worried about carey coming into the picture and messing me up. i never imagined this, saturday night went about my normal mergedown going routine.....was nervous about carey being there even though i knew she wouldnt be. never imagined id meet someone....in walk Tanya, (A.)the name alone kicks ass, then we talked and rode to the s.side together and talked and talked and talked.....then went back to her hotel and talked and talked and talked and kissed and held each other..it was amazing.....now she is all i can think about....sadly...Jess who.....? and heres the rub....Tanya lives 3hours away. how do i deal with that? so now i am in a real bad situation......do i forget about jess even though its a slim chance ill ever see tanya again or do i forget about tanya and supress these feelings and see jess? or do i walk away from both? YEAH! this sucks!
9:20am
tanya's face hasnt left my head.....what was it about her? i have no idea....she just totally kicked ass.
10:43am
i hope i get to talk to her tonight. im sad today, it appears this light in my life is too distant, so i am again in the dark.
12:30pm
well, appparently she really liked me....and wants to see me agani....lunch
